Andrew Garfield looks back on the sad reality of being (and not being) Spider-Man

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Sep 3, 2015, 7:50 PM EDT (Updated)

Though Sony promised an ambitious, connected universe built around Andrew Garfield and the Amazing Spider-Man franchise — all of that crumbled with the diminishing box-office returns. So, what does Garfield make of his tenure as Peter Parker, now that it’s officially over?

With Tom Holland’s new, younger Spider-Man set to finally join the MCU in Captain America: Civil War, Garfield opened up in an interview with Zaki’s Corner and reflected on what it was like to play one of the most famous comic-book characters ever created. Garfield took a brutally honest approach to his time in the suit and likened his efforts to Peter Parker’s own worldview — he essentially felt he could never do enough in the role to truly make it work.

Here’s an excerpt from his comments:

“[I] was never Spider-Man. Because Spider-Man's a fictional character. He's not real. [laughs] You know what's funny, to give you the vulnerable answer, I thought I was going to be Spider-Man, you know? I went into it going... ego sh-t came in. It's like, "Okay, here it is. I'm f---ing Spider-Man. I f---ing made it." All that sh-t. [laughs] I didn't actually make it. I was never Spider-Man.

I was the actor that I am. The person that I am. Struggling with trying to match up with something that I'd elevated so high in my mind. Elevated beyond what I could attain, what I could achieve. The great thing is, that's what Peter Parker was doing as well. Peter Parker created this symbol that he couldn't live up to. It was never enough. He never felt enough, and I never felt enough. I never felt like I was able to do enough. And I couldn't rescue those films... even though I didn't sleep. [laughs]

And I wanted to... not to say that I needed to rescue those films, but I couldn't make them as deep and soulful and... life-giving as I could ever dream. And I'm never gonna be able to do that, with any film. It was especially difficult in that situation because... well, just because. And it was especially important because that character has always meant so much to me, and you saw that if you saw the Comic Con thing, which, thank you for reminding me about that.”

Though some fans weren’t excited about Garfield’s take on Peter Parker, his version of Spider-Man was never the problem with Marc Webb’s Amazing Spider-Man franchise. The movies were uneven, and though Webb could deftly handle the small personal moments, he never got a grasp of connecting the bombastic comic-book-y-ness of it all in a way that was actually impactful.

Instead, Garfield’s version of the character will almost certainly go down as an interesting distraction, falling between Sam Raimi’s seminal take on the franchise and the new version moving forward in the MCU.

What’s your take on Garfield’s Spider-Man? Do you think he was the right Peter Parker, just in the wrong movie?

(Via Zaki’s Corner)