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Vanessa is having a rough time this week. First, she just killed a guy in cold blood, just because she was hungry. Then, as she’s wandering through the woods grappling with this issue, she is set upon by the Oracle, who never spells good news.
The Oracle informs Vanessa that she is indeed starting to change into something else. She has killed before, sure, but this time she killed to feed. Oh and the Oracle was there when Vanessa was in that car accident as a child. She has been chosen, which, let’s be honest, isn’t really news. The Oracle doesn’t think Vanessa has goodness enough to kill the Dark One, but Vanessa is defiant.
The Oracle disappears, but that’s not the end of Vanessa’s woodland encounters. Moments later she follows a trail to discover her old friend Mohamad, whom she hasn’t seen since the beginning of last season. Mohamad does recognize her, but he is not so keen on being turned back to a human.
Vanessa chases Mohamad through the woods and into an industrial area, but instead of biting him and turning him back, she falls through the roof of the building and ends up impaled on a hook, unable to get down despite many many many painful attempts.
Tired, bleeding, near death, Vanessa is treated to a host of specters of the past to help her process her guilt, or, at least, to heap on more. First up, John from way back in Season 1. Vanessa maintains that she had good reason for killing him. She doesn’t regret it. But does she regret the last man she killed? Did she have good reason?
Next up, Julius. The human version. He’s here to make her feel a little better. After all, he did plenty of terrible things and he’s still a good person. Vanessa’s not quite so certain about her own goodness, though. What if she’s gone too far?
Human Julius is, of course, immediately followed by vampire Julius, because even though he’s good now, there was once a real evil inside him, and we don’t just mean the one who gave him fashion tips. Perhaps that evil is inside her, too, forcing her to kill to survive.
Susan is also a reminder of pain, though, and of her own failure to protect those she loves. Sam is here too, the old version, before he was a vampire, when he was just a horrible serial killer. Why didn’t she kill him when she had the chance? It’s her fault so many people have died.
No painful reminder, though, is as painful as Dylan, and she arrives too, happy and healthy as though she was never turned into a vampire at all. And even though she is a reminder of everything Vanessa has lost, she is also a reminder that those we love never really leave.
It’s a good time for hope too, because Vanessa has been hanging here a while and Mohamad is back. If she wants to get down, she’s going to need his help. She manages to coax him down the chain, close enough to bite her bloody hand, and like it always does, her blood turns him back into her friend, and he helps her free herself.
Finally out of danger and as free of guilt as she’s going to be for a little while, Vanessa and Mohamad leave the building and catch up on news from their adventures. Then, Vanessa sends him away, not wanting to risk his life any further. He agrees, but as soon as he’s far enough away he chases after her.